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Over a year...

Thu Mar 19, 2009, 8:26 AM
Forgive that last journal entry of over a year ago. No, seriously, because I was fucked up and lost and on drugs, literally.

I haven't written anything meaningful in over a year. I haven't drawn anything. I had to sell my camera because I was starving. And none of this I am telling you to make you pity me; on the contrary - tell me how much of an idiot I was, because that's more likely the truth. I wasted a year on "finding myself", and all I really found was that I needed to stop bitching and start working my ass off for everything.

My naivety was my ultimate downfall. My inability to say no to situations further sealed the deal. But now I have the chance, and hopefully the time, to make things up a bit. It's been a long road even getting to this point. I know I still have much distance to walk.

...It's a nice day for a walk, though.

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~zydrack Mar 19, 2009, 1:15:25 PM
well at least welcome back and have a nice walk remember to stop and smell the roses and taste the honey suckle

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~s0lidsn4k3 Mar 19, 2009, 5:00:41 PM
:hug:

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Maintenant, Je Hais.
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~cranberrydreams Mar 20, 2009, 5:59:11 AM
thank you, dear. I'll remember, I promise. :)
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^kkart Mar 20, 2009, 9:10:13 AM
I honestly respect the hell out of you for posting this, and doing what you have done. You don't have very far to walk, you seem to have taken some of the biggest steps already. :hug:

Would you consider going with an older digital point and shoot that is used? I have a few ideas if you will!

It is really nice to see you back here, I was wondering where you had gone to!

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~zydrack Mar 20, 2009, 11:45:00 AM
hey its good to know ur still around

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*Vegvisir Mar 22, 2009, 7:37:43 AM
Hey sister, nothing to forgive, I do understand and I can relate. We all get off track sometimes but you have now turned the wheel and changed your direction. You are no idiot and your past work proves that! You and I are only human and I too have gotten lost. Sometimes we have to get knocked down and fall to pieces before we can see everything clearly enough to put the puzzle back together. You are on the right track now! :hug: Stay strong and follow your heart. Remember, you have your own unique talent inside you just waiting to come out again. Never loose sight of who you are and how special you are because it's true. I know I don't spend much time on here and I don't say very much but I can't sit back and say nothing at a time like this. You are not alone and I will be thinking of you and sending positive vibes your way! :) :sun:
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~cranberrydreams Mar 29, 2009, 10:29:15 AM
Oh, hon, I'd be interested in using any camera. I'm so jonesin' right now!

Thanks for the encouraging words too; it's really nice hearing from you. :)

What's new, doll? How have you been? :hug:
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~cranberrydreams Mar 29, 2009, 10:33:11 AM
Gosh, you're awesome! I can feel those positive vibes, too! :hug: It's nice to know there are people who aren't afraid of their humanity, but rather embrace and use that humanity for the best. Thank you for being positive in this wide world of our's. :)
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